malaysia holiday fun!

in penang atm and its sooooo flippin good to be on break.  have spent the last 24 hours shopping (LOTS OF IT) and drinking pina colada’s and taking lots of photos.  went to a place today where fish nibble at the dead skin on ur feet, and u come out with ur feet feeling all soft n shit…. such a weird experience but very cool lol! holiday life is so good, joing in the big world of consumerism and spending spending spending till ur full n satisfied… eating out all the time good food and trying new things…. shopping….massages… what more could u want??? but there is so much more.  being on holiday is great but wen it comes down to it, its stil love n ppl n god n laughter n peace that matter.  (and yes there has been lots of laughter over here with charlotte- i swear she’s like my identical twin) lol!  the landscape is amazing and such beautiful scenery but im happy to say that im glad the great land down under is my home.  along with all the beauty there is a lot of pain and dirt and yuck over here.  its 2am now n im looking 4ward to a big sleep in tomoro, then out to do some foto shoots in the jungle yay! now thats one thing u cant do in perth…

Sluts, Whores and the Masculine MAN

so here i am just finished writin a tutorial on gender, and how promiscuous women are called SLUTS and promiscuous men are considered champions.  Its unfair that we live in such a discriminate world… (and b4 u ask, NO I AM NOT A FEMINIST).  doin all this research n shit for uni has made me realise jus how far the scrutiny goes for girls vs guys.  I mean, a girl is looked down upon by society, ppl, her CHURCH even, if she sleeps with a guy.  But a guy who masturbates every week or nite or hour to some cheap cock-fucking-a-tight-pussy pornshow is for some reason considered perfectly normal.  yeh yeh, guys are different, they need to get it out, they’re more sexual then chicks…. its a load of crap if u ask me.  i know guys who have fucked over 100 girls and are proud to admit it, yet a girl will say she’s slept with 10 guys and its like “oh shock horror what a loose bitch!” or “well she’ll obviously open her legs to anyone” type thing.  the whole reason of aids coming about was supposedly cos MEN were fucking MONKEYS!   thats right! shovin their dicks up anything that has a hole.  ive been reading this really interesting book whilst tryin to do my tute, its called “Damned Whores and God’s Police” by Anne Summers-  was supposedly a best seller in the 70’s when it came out and it talks about all this shit, (but much more better and pro of course). 

anyway my point is, not to say how men sleep with so many girls and it doesnt matter, but that whatever happened to equality???? this is Australia isnt it? the land of the free?  yet our society is so stupid and thoughtless that they dont even realise that we are living this way.  And ill admt that i didnt really think about it too much b4 i did this tute for uni.  sex and sluts and all this is such a ‘taboo’ topic that no one even has the guts to talk about it.  LOL!  what a joke our culture can be!  thats it from me today.

so what if people judge me- as if i give a shit

the last wknd has been amazing terrible and i guess somewhat ok in myself but jus interacting with other people…

i thik too many people care about wat other people think of them.  like seriously, who really gives a shit if a friend of a friend thinks ur a hoebag, or a bitch, or jus weird.  im not one to really give a shit about wat people say.  ive had a lot said about me and u learn to jus shrug it off and get on with life.   yet last nite i was told that not caring is a problem. wtf? so its like a lose/lose situation.  either care and get all insecure and shit, or dont care and then seem like nothing matters at all.  i hate people who are so damn insecure about themselves that they feed off others compliments to them.  i hate people who are quick to judge (even tho i probly do it myself lol!) bbut the thing is, is i dont care if ppl wana judge me.  if it takes up some of their time and amuses them for a few minutes then good 4 them, they can go fuck themselves haha!

maybe there is some balance in all of this, but im not gona burn my bra over what ppl say and think of me.  ill tell people the truth- to their face.  ill tell people what  i think and im not afraid to upset someone if it means telling them the truth.  shit man like i jus wish ppl would tooughen the fuck up and not get all offended when i say my opinion.  anyway, im an artist, so isnt that wat im supposed to do…? at  least i have the freedom to paint wat i think, but even then being at curtin (an institution) there is still a fuckin ethics board where if ur art oversteps the line then whoops sorry u cant do it anymore.  watever happened to freedom of speech?

not in a fab mood as u can probly tell. jus wana give ppl something to think about.

really gay people

man some ppl r so fucking gay.  not gay in like the homosexual type- just gay in like annoying and stupid and rude and dickheads.  why are there soooooooo many dickheads in the world seriously? i know im probly one of them lol! im jus havin a rant to get this shit off my chest. people are jus so fuckin complicated, one minute they love u, the next they hate u. haha but its wat makes the world go round i guess. people jus so piss me off, but then again, if i knew me, id probly piss me off. and life is so good with people, yet so painful and messy and a big web of tangled relationships.  apparently ive caused quite a mess in my life right now.  i dont think its messy- its only messy if u let it get like that and let shit play wit ur head.  did some awesome paintings this week- well maybe they arent awesome but my own painting had me laughing for a good half hour! if i wasnt so lazy i would of taken a photo of it and posted it now.  but i am lazy, so that will have to wait.