I have seen the rain

this is a song that Pink sung with her dad.  spent some time with the vietnam veterans lately and i admire u all.  ur all so beautiful at heart and i cant imagine having to go thru wat u have.  u’ve given our country freedom, yet paid the price for it personally, so thankyou- to all my vietnam vet friends.

I have seen the rain
I have felt the pain
I don’t know where I’ll be tomorrow
I don’t know where I’m going
I don’t even know where I’ve been
But i know I’d like to see them again.

Spend my days just searching
Spend my nights in dreams
Stop looking over my shoulder baby
I’ve stopped wonderin’ what it means
Drop out, burn out, solidier ho-oh they’ve said I should’ve been more
Probably so if i hadn’t of been in that crazy damn Vietnam war.

I have seen the rain
I’ve survived the pain
Oh I’ve been home 30 years or so
And I’m just stepping up for the blame

Spend my days just searching
Spend my nights in dreams
Stop looking over my shoulder baby
I’ve stopped wonderin’ what it means
Drop out, burn out, solidier ho-oh they’ve said I should’ve been more
Probably so if i hadn’t of been in that crazy damn Vietnam war.

We have seen the rain, together
We have survived the pain, forever
Oh it’s good to home again
Its good to be with my friends
Oh it’s good to be home again
It’s good to feel that rain

There is hope…just a little bit

things have been looking rather bleak but i was just talking to a friend and i feel like ive been slapped in the face and actually woken up to the fact that there is hope, no matter how small it is.  the end is never the end, it just feels like the end… but then u realise that there are some good things to live for.  life can look so grey and dark sometimes, with the storm clouds brewing and rain pouring down on u til ur drenched and drowning in your own problems, but eventually summer does come.  not just speaking metaphorically here, but from what i know to be true through my own experiences.  U might go down and take 5 steps back, but as long as u keep moving then u’ll eventually end up somewhere good in life.  choosing to live is so important- i dont want to exist, I WANT TO LIVE! and thats what im going to do.  i dont pretend to know the answers to everything… in fact i admit that i dont know much lol! especially about making good choices.  but i do know that if ur life has no purpose then u’ll dry up and become empty.  this world will suck everything good out of ur life unless u choose not to let it. so we all gotta choose right! choose to really live.

LIFE…and the meaning of it???

the past few days ive been thinking lots bout the meaning of life. why we’re here on this earth, wat lies beyond it? why do innocent children die and criminals live? why is there so much poverty when there is so much greed and wealth? why is there no justice? why does the action of one person against another have the ability to ruin a person’s life?  where is god when it hurts so much and all u can do is cry out to him for help?  so many questions that i have go unanswered everyday.  i hope and pray for justice.  i want to see freedom and redemption but it seems like its too far out of reach for me.  will things ever change or will they stay the same?  do we really have a choice, or does our mind have that much power over us…  big questions that no one can answer. i wish i knew.  i wish i knew the secret to a content life.  Is god enough?  i know the world has nothing to offer but pain and injustice… except every once in awhile u come across ppl who are amazing, who love and care and live life- actually live it!  im glad i got ppl like that in my life.  i love my beautiful friends!!!  u know who u are

lots of wacky people everywhere…

have met lots of very interesting people today.  its nice to know that ur not the only one who isnt quite with it all… in fact i think the whole world is not really with it at all, we jus like to pretend we are.  people plaster on a face of makeup and a fake smile and answer FINE to how’s it going… lol wat a funny word that is.  cos its so full of crap. i want my life to be real and authentic, not a mask or something that im not.  And ive realised that some people dont like real.  they prefer the fakes and the fines as opposed to whats really going on around them- in their own world and other peoples too.  why cant people just handle the truth? i mean is it really that hard.  truth spoken in love of course, not that bitchy type wen its to bring the other person down….

on another note, one of my fav songs by the fray says this

“happiness often feels like sorrow.  let it be, it will come and it will go…”

so true.  happiness is sometimes sorrow, and sorrow happiness.  i dont quite no how that works but it makes sense in the song wen u hear it.

peace, for now.

Perth is HOME SWEET HOME

i love travelling but everytime i leave perth i love it even more and want to come bak home to it.  wat is it about our little tiny town thats so far away from everything that is jus soooo comforting and home to me.  i love perth…. everytime i travel i come home and say im never leaving perth again, then i do and the same thing always happens lol! i love our laid bak quiet little city, the river, the 3 good cafes that exist lol! my bed, my uni, my pink sparkly journel i miss it all!!!  cant wait to get back… plane rides suck big time so not looking 4ward to the flight home. 

im about to start a new art project this month…”inside me” is basically wat it is.  going to be a very personal and intimate and emotional piece but im looking 4ward to doing it.  ull have to stay tuned to see wat it is…. hmmmm???

anyway another 24 hours or so n ill be back, home sweet home, and bak to making my art and doing photos.  good fun.  cant wait.

IF U LIKE PINA COLADA’S….

yo hoes from the island of penang…

thats right im on holiday whilst all u biatchs are at work. work it! and on stupid camps lol hahahahahahhaahaahahahahahahaha jebus camp has egg vomit that is jono and jason’s in a bucket lol!

went and hit the town tongiht and we drank pina colada’s and we did get caught in the fuckin rain damn humidity lol!  not joking!   good fun! saw some phillo band play and danced the nte away to some fukn gfood rnb ohhhhh  yehhhhH!!!!

DID I MENTION THAT I GOT DRAGGED HOME BY MY AUNTY N MUMMY LOL!!!  haha ive nevr bn pikd up from the club like that had a massive debate about bible bashing christians was so funny i couldnt stop laughin on the inside lol! ended up in the good ol’ silent treatment… but it didnt work 4 me i talked to god and had a lovely convo with him cos i didnt want to b quiet i wanted to talk…. and talk i did lol!

we r goddesses over here in malaysia.. they love the white ppl! hooray 4 me!