and away sails my mind into the deep blue sea
Posted by: Administrator Post date: June 8th, 2010its hard to say what exactly happens when i float away to a different world. im not even sure myself exactly what it is… a symptom of some mental idsorder perhaps? or just that too much is being taken in and i need to escape from it. what im talking about is dissasociation. where your mind just goes blank, or takes you to another place, and u dont know wen ull be back with reality.
today it happened in my review and i stood there like a stunned mullet not speaking or doing anything really. not even listening. how terribly unfortunate for the review panel and my poor supervisor who had to step in as my mouth and speak 4 me. my mind was numb, my mouth was mute. and i couldnt tell you what went on or wat was said whilst standing in the room with the 5 reviewers. i didnt hear a damn thing.
this ‘dissasociation’ has been happening for years, and its really starting to PISS ME OFF!!!! how can someone lose control of their mind for a minute, or hour, or longer? i dont know. i am baffled by it. i am here and then im not. my body might physically be with u but my mind isnt. its somewhere else, floating aorund in the air or something like that i think.
it is hard, coping with this thing- it constantly looms over me and i worry when it will happen next… i dont know. i never do. i do my best to deal with this thing that happens in my mind, however it works. some neurons dont connect with others or something along those lines. i wish i knew the answers!!!!!!!!!!!!!
corina
