art and emotions… sometimes the two jus dont go together
Posted by: Administrator Post date: March 31st, 2009so yesterday i was feeling so pissed off with stuff and life and little things in general, i pulled out a giant sheet of canvas n let it all out for the whole world to see. Yeh, thats something ive gotten into a bad habit of doing. unless u actually want to wear ur heart on ur sleeve then it can be a bitch. this creative outlet thats so great and passion-filled and free, and yet as soon as you put something up on the wall, ur judged for it. whats so wrong about being angry??? People assume im some kind of freak, a poor neglected child…. YES i have parents, NO i dont do drugs, and im DEFINATELY NOT going to go shoot someone. Gosh, is it too much to ask to be allowed to show some anger? why does society and people want us to push everything away, hide our emotions and fill those empty voids with the bullshit consumerism products that they advertise. get this outfit and u’ll feel secure, have money and ur successful, get this technology shit and ur cool… LOL! wat a joke! i think me, and people, jus gota feel emotions sometimes and forget our silly ways of coping and trying to numb it out. a personal flaw of mine- good old retail therapy- ive found does nothin really but get u into debt… hmmm ill have to remind myself that next time i feel down and think “i jus have to have that dress!”. i saw “Confessions of aa shopaholic” the other week, ur probly thinking errr how gay but its actually really good! jus throwing out the old shit and realising wats important. getting ur life where u want it to be. harder done then said i know, but thats wat im tryna do right now… its bloody hard, thats all i can say.
