gobbledigoop
Posted by: Administrator Post date: August 13th, 2009life is just one big pile of gobbledigoop… a big mess… a rubbish tip that we live in and have to dig thru to find something thats valuable. sifting and sifting thru all the crap, it takes it out of u, it drains u like the water being sucked down the bathdrain…a spiral going down that ripples thru every aspect of ur life.
how the fuk do we sort the shit out from the good? how do we even know whats shit and whats good??? the mind is so decieving, so cunning and vicious and lies to us. my mind lies to myself and i believe it- so then its not really lies is it- its the truth. my truth. that i have to live with every single day.
escape the truth the lies the deception how do we fly away to a better place where none of this exits. that everything is chaos and beautiful and light and butterflies. the euphoria of the moment doesnt dissapear when u stop taking that drug, stop sleeping with that guy, stop drinking, stop putting on a mask, stop pretending that everything is ok.
cos everything is not ok. the world is not ok. the world is a screwed up place and we have to live in it. the only way out is death. so make the most of this life, or indulge yourself in ur flaws so that u live in a deep hole of anguish and pain and depression for ur whole being.
go back to being a child- where has all our innocence gone? it evaporates from our souls as we grow up. tho some of us never grow up, we dont know how to grow up. stuck in a moment of the past and never moving beyond that point. not mentally or emotionally- only physically. we grow old and get wrinkles and grey hair yet dont know what the fuk we’re doing. how has the human race become like this? a mass just existing in time. time that we will never get back.
how precious is time? ask a dying person that and theyll tell u its everything. but me and you, time doesnt matter. live in the moment or live for the future- we think we r invincible. i think i am invincible. i cannot die. the world is against me on this one.
its like i am an immortal being. trapped here.
