love and life and all things shit
Posted by: Administrator Post date: April 19th, 2009went to my friend Karlee’s wedding yesterday and it was sooooo beautiful! SHE was so beautiful! the whole day was great and come speeches time at the reception i sat with my champayne toasting all these people and crying cos everything was just soooo BEAUTIFUL!!!! and then the drive home in the dark thru the bush at nite and it was gloomy and tiring and back to reality of the ugliness that life can bring. got home to an empty house and let the loneliness kick in. have a cigarette, sit in bed feeling drowsy from the wine, and let my mind float into an oasis of nothingness…
yes thats right, thinking about everything and nothing at the same time and wondering if everything around me is how its meant to be. is God really in contol of my life and my destiny and has all the shinanigans sorted and is riding the rollercoaster of ups and downs of life with me??? i dont think i make sense to many people but i make sense to myself.
life can be shattering at times when the ones you love and trust break ur heart and leave u bleeding on the floor… (metaphorically speaking of course). But thats love isnt it. its great. its beautiful. its shit. its heartbreaking. its passion and hatred and life-giving and comforting all at the same time. i wish love was one thing or another, but its not. but without love, there is no life. there is being alive, but no LIFE. love brings life to even the darkest moments in humanity.
