my head is warped!
Posted by: Administrator Post date: August 21st, 2009The past week has been like groundhog day. same thing over and over again. wake up. coffee. cigarette. draw. another coffee and cigarette. sleep sleep sleep. dinner. cigarette. back to sleep.
thats what ive been doing for the last week, and the days are going painfully slow. ready to hit the road and get outta here. time for a road trip i think. my head is just so fucked up and this place is keeping me here, keeping me trapped in my own ridiculous way of thinking.
i confuse myself so much. i dont know wats right, wats wrong. ppl tell me and i want to believe them and i cant. something holds me back.
i had to give away my puppy charlie. i was too sick to look after him, so he went to a better home where they’ll love him and walk him and look after him properly. i kinda miss him, he was so super cute. my mind holds me back from so many things.
warped thinking! its all my brain does. yet i dont even know if its warped & fukd up, i jus think its normal. difficult way to live it is. if i could escape my mind then i would… i wish we could go on vacation from ourselves lol. i’d go travelling for months and years on end! haha! but that wont happen sadly. im stuck with myself. 24/7. it gets tiring being stuck with myself all the time.
mayb thats why ive been sleeping so much. i just dont have the energy atm to hang out with myself.
