off ya face and onto the page
Posted by: Administrator Post date: May 25th, 2010so many thoughts, feelings, emotions, thoughts, more thoughts, they constantly fill my head. so much so that i need to let it out somehow… a painting, a drawing, how bout some scribbling or screaming even? it could work for awhile but then they creep back up onto u, into ur mind like a cancer that spreads. i have been sitting listening to my friend beth’s writing- its amazing (check out the link so she wrote) and i feel like i have sat and watched a movie in my head whilst listening to her words. the imagination runs so free, sometimes i think its deadly.
my imagination can be a deadly virus i just dont ever seem to see the symptoms. why is that i wonder? am i so blinded to my own stupidity? or so deaf that i cannot hear my own words. where does our rational come from, and who ever decided what what rational in the first place.. or more who decided what was IRrational….????? hmmmm was it the psychiatrists who were self medicating? (we all know they do it). write a script up for ur patient and while ur at it write one for yourself. i wonder if psychs are actually on crack, or if their 6 years of med school drove them all insane. insane beyond the normal person, they just know how to cover it up.
i dont know how people cover things up. honestly i think i might be the worst liar in the world. i laugh at myself when i know im lying and blow my own cover within seconds lol. so so so many thoughts to get out, it gives me a headache sometimes. most of the time i jus push it to the back of my empty head where there’s still room. but today there is excitement in the air and my brain has picked it up… not literally of course. but so much happening all at one time, its hard to take it in.
super sensitive people are us creative lot. it might be hard for you to understand this but we are a different breed. Everything we see, hear, smell, touch, feel- is more sensitive then to the normal human being. Have u ever wondered why creative people are usually the ones with the mental disorders and the ones with the guns to their heads? its cos we FEEL so much, all the time, everywhere, everyday, every minute and every second. a force that cannot be explained goes seeping into our pores and becomes like a drug to us. one word- and an volcano of ideas erupts. one image- and the blank pages of a book is filled.
we fuel ourselves on whats around us and whats inside us. like petrol keeps a car running, this super sensitivity to the world and to others and ourselves keeps us running. its not like sniffing petrol tho and staying high on it. there are ups and downs, emotions that are too overwhelming to even describe in words. only maybe a picture, some fragmented words put together without making sense, a tune, a poem, a dance- can express it.
how do we live in this constant atmosphere of feelings? i duno. im still figuring that one out…
i must pry myself away from this computer before my entire being takes over and the irrational kicks in, if it hasnt already. i oculd write and ramble for hours on this incredible psychadelic thing that seems to be going on here in the air but i dont think i could accurately describe it to you, even if i tried my very hardest.
peace bro’s…
im a lover not a hater
x x corina
