on & on & on & on it goes
Posted by: Administrator Post date: November 14th, 2009has been a long while since ive written. things have been crazy busy with end of uni and the festive season beginning, and lots of things have changed. But the fight is still going on. Yes, it is a long hard and dusty road that i feel like im travelling on (or trying too at least when i dont fall down in the gutter)…
this life in perspective doesnt really last that long, but yet things seem to go on forever. the never ending choices that u have to make so u stay sane. it sucks the energy out of u. and whilst i feel like some of the darkness has left me, like shadows, they are still there. emerging from the night and changing and shifting in the dark, playing with ur mind and whispering to u to come back into the darkness and play. but at night, when shadows are all around, ive found out that all u have to do is jus turn on the light. sounds so simple right? but finding the switch in the dark can sometimes take forever.
letting go of the past, hoping 4 the future, and tryin to do the best u can in the present- its a hard road. some stuff just doesnt seem to want to let go. no matter how hard u try to pull it off, it sticks on u like a leech, and sucks out ur blood- ur life- in the process.
surely there is an answer???? an answer to all this madness and to the many questions that plague me daily. yes- the answer is jesus. and all we have to do is surrender it to him… its a pity that thats the hard part. letting go and giving ur life to a god u cant see. trusting in a miraculous god that created the universe and is omnipresent, omnipotent, yet loves unconditionally. us mere humans need more help then we think. Jesus is the answer, but are we really looking for the answers? or just living comfortably in our miserable existence hoping that all will turn out right in the end? there are 6 billion people alive on the planet- i wonder how many of us are actually living.
