sunday arvo
Posted by: Administrator Post date: August 30th, 2009sitting on the couch n its a sunday afternoon, bored as fuck. i feel like having a party! or goin to the rivervale sunday sess haha havent done that in awhile. under lock and key right now… apparently thats wat friends are for.
im thinking i might leave perth and go to the UK. it would be nice to start life over again. pity the weather there is so shit house, i duno if i could last without the sunshine. life is already depressing enough when the weather is good.
had a full on weekend my body feels like a 50 yr old haha like its aging so damn quickly. it probly is with all the drugs being pumped through it constantly… (not illegal drugs btw i dont do that shit no more).
need a damn nicotine fix but i cant be arsed going outside for a smoke. chain smoking is so much fun when u dont have to move. i could chain smoke everyday and drink coffee and sit in the sun if the sun was out forever. nighttime is so shit cos its always cold and dark and miserable. i’d hate to be a nocternal animal.
i think my brain is producing so many random thoughts today cos i am feeling rather anxious. remember to breathe!!! breathe in, breathe out, keep going and make sure the oxygen gets to my head. mayb my head is just full of air and thats y im able to talk so much shit lol!
got the shakes all over my body. anxiety is a bitch. u’d think i was having some epiletic fit cos my body shakes that much im finding it so hard jus to type right now cos my hands feel like jello with no bones or muscles just fat flopping everywhere all over the keyboard.
Am thinking i should change my life to something different then wat it is now. im not sure exactly wat tho. i wish i was born in the 60’s, i think i wouldve rocked house in that era. free spirited hippies smokin weed and singing under the trees with guitars oh how i wish i could do that now and not look like a freak haha! paint love EVERYWHERE and hug anything that moves… was a good era the 60’s. maybe we should timewarp back to it.
enough from me today… my head is starting to get confused with all this hippy talk. need to go for a smoke and clear my head, get some fresh air into the lungs ahhhh…. thats better. ciao 4 now.
