who is in control?…i am not
Posted by: Administrator Post date: August 9th, 2009im sitting next to an old lady who is having trouble breathing. its like every breath is such a struggle just to stay alive.
the last few days ive had my control taken away from me by the system…but i no how to trick them. i know how to get back in control of my life.
i thnk one of the worst things in life is having ur con trol taken away from u, whether its physically or emotionally or psychologically. who wants to be out of control? no one. thats why we do the the things we do.
people will trick and manipulate and lie just to get their control back. ive been in the system now for years and i no all the right things to say, how to act, what to do… and yet wen i find myself free i am not reeally free. i am still trapped in my own body, in my own head. there is no escaping you. you’re with urself 24/7 which is the sucky part.
i think im overtired and on too many meds to write or think clearly so for now- peace.
